Feeling kind of depressed today. Trying to listen to some encouraging music, and not let it get me down. But all I want to do is lay in bed and cry! I honestly have no idea why I'm feeling this way. Well...maybe I do.
I've prayed - could probably pray some more...
I think I'm just frustrated.
I had a dream last night. It was so real and so vivid.
My belly was huge and swollen and inside was a healthy baby. In my dream I kept touching my stomach in awe that I was actually pregnant. Finally after so many years, so many medications, and so many false hopes, my dreams had come true. The hubs and I were having a baby!
In my dream we went shopping, decorated the nursery, and anticipated the arrival of our child. I told my family and friends, my pastor, my church... IT WAS ACTUALLY HAPPENING.
Then I woke up.
So many intense emotions filled me. The excitement of being pregnant. The sinking realization that it was just a dream, and now, the depression.
Really hard to trust and know that everything will happen in God's timing...not my own.
Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.
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